So ... I've just had a good round of auditioning in the Michigan area, and while I have a great feeling of 'a job well done,' I still cannot escape the feeling that it is all for naught. When you're waiting around for someone to offer you something (or even to call with a rejection ... which, while it seems like something you WOULDN'T look forward to, actually means a lot if a producer takes the time to actually call you up and give you one,) and you're still looking for work, you've entered the 'soul-sucking' portion of the job.
I've already come to terms with the fact that I am merely one of hundreds/thousands/hundreds of thousands of actors who are going through the same thing, but it doesn't make it ANY easier. I've gone through most of the rationalizations. Usually the first thing out of my mouth after being asked the obligatory 'How'd the audition go?' is an obligatory 'It went great!' (Which fortunately has actually been the case the past few weeks.) This is then followed by the obligatory 'But it could probably mean absolutely nothing,' or something to that effect, which is to calm the excitement of both the asker and myself. This way, if something comes from it, it will be a blessing, and if nothing comes from it, then the disappointment won't be as bad.
... which is almost always NEVER the case. You ALWAYS want to get that job!
I love my job, but sometimes it sucks ... even after a great audition.
P.S. You can see on my 'shelfy' thing what plays and books I am currently reading. If you're curious.
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Sorry it's so sucky - I hate waiting too. But you COULD be waiting while knowing that you awful auditions and I'd have to imagine waiting with good ones behind you MUST be better.
Got a rejection from another agent today. She said "I thought it was cute, but didn't fall totally in love." THEN she gave me the name of another agent at another agency to try! As you can probably tell by the use of the Excitement Mark I am probably WAY too excited about this. But it feels SO much better than a simple "no, thank you."
So should we not ask "How did the audition go?" What is the correct form for actors-support-type people such as myself? I don't want to get it wrong, but I do want to know what's going on.
Oh, and nice 'shelfy thing'.
Thief.
And on the topic of the 'shelfy thing', we must become friends. I just checked out one of your titles and noticed the '5 books on shelf, 0 friends' and that '0 friends' part is just sad.
Oh .. believe me ... you shouldn't stop asking "how'd the audition go?" The frustration doesn't really come from hearing the question, it comes from not having the answer.
Friends? Where?
FYI .. I got a phone call from the artistic director for Mason Street and he really wants me to get to New York to audition for one of the directors. So ... things aren't going TOO badly.
Incidently, Stacey, I may need to borrow your video camera again. Is that possible?
I'll ask in a more formal setting than via a comment on my blog.
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